Have you ever felt the reins of life slipping out of your hands. Thats exactly what i am feeling sitting in office giving blank stares at the screen of my PC.
Have you ever felt the reins of life slipping out of your hands. Thats exactly what i am feeling sitting in office giving blank stares at the screen of my PC. Feeling totally directionless, aimless and floating in the arms of this ruthless time.
I dont know where i lost all my confidence, self respect and zeal to do-something-in-life.
The life as it appears before me, is as dull as it really is. No false notions about it are now left in my mind. Slowly and slowly I have proved all my thinking patterns as wrong and have seemed to come to the conclusion that there is nothing worth doing in the lifetime.
How I sit, lonely, staring as if trying to tear out the facts from the monitor.
Life was quite fun for me in college days. I was in so called good college with the in thing, electronics engineering. When I entered the IT industry, I felt a start of new era and had lots of vigour and expectations from myself. As the time passed by, i realizesd that its not what i should be doing at all.
This seems to be only a race for money and more and more comforts. Life slowly becomes like a predefined process and you act as per your predefined roles.
What choices do you have after all : Go to US or Stocks or e-entrepreneur ????
What even if i am able to choose one of these? Big deal.
How I wish i could tear myself away from this phony corporate environment and these false pleasures of flesh.
I have started to hate my own being. I seem to have been defeated and lost everything in this life.
Sometimes I do sit and try to put all the broken pieces together and find out the answers to the problems i have. Its then I realize that i do know what I should do but only why i should do all this is what i have not been able to find out.
Now i believe that this is the way things will continue and i really can't do anything about it. Let myself float around for some more time and let things happen as they are happening.
Maybe someday i will know as why and how i should continue living.
What stayed with you?
A line that lingered, a feeling, a disagreement. Great comments are as valuable as the original piece.
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Dear, It seems your life has become very boring for you... but have you ever thought that this sort of article is going to spoil so many young aspirants. what will these guys do and think.. Don't ruin there career. Tell me one thing what sort of job can return all those which you have lost? If you have answer then go for it and stop crying. I would suggest you onething instead of staring at your PC go and search something for you which can give light to your life.
Dear, Please dont talk to me as a person in context to this article. What i wrote were not exactly my personal feelings but a generalized observation. It is an attempt to write on the mental agonies of today's generation, which i have collected from various real life personalities. And we can not hide these from upcoming generation because denial is not the solution. One has to accept the facts and then carry on..isnt it.
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