Brick in the wall

Why is being just another brick in the wall so unnerving?

When I see people getting distraught about how they are doing commonplace things, that do not seem to be making a difference, I pause to ponder over why is it so important to so many people to stand out of the crowd while I remain so insouciant to the idea, if not apprehensive of it.

I have never been the very ambitious types, never wanted to be someone standing out, because that is something I somehow attach with loneliness. And that has probably been the reason that I feel most comfortable doing projects that involve group work, not because I see them as an excuse to escape work; but because it gives me a sense of belonging someplace.

Hence I have always laid more stress on doing the job; and more significantly; a subservient one; irrespective of whether I am doing it alone or as part of a attroupment.

Probably it is because I have always felt apprehensive of having to deal with things alone; without a fulcrum; and only towering expectations to endure. I have no hassles about being just another brick in the wall, if that brick helps support the building and it's existence there is crucial to the diuturnity of the building. I'd be happier laughing away with the other bricks about me.