Love

bonds that tie two people..... i give you that customary peck on the cheek you bid me good bye for the day without a hint of smile on your face i walk away without looking back even once we live in our own world till evening- i search for reasons which allows me to pull on i search for people who give me impetus to live on while you prefer to get deeper into your self created seclusion i come back in the evening now not even expecting you to be by window side as always you walk over towards me with a glass of water but not returning back that customary- my morning kiss on your cheeks and hurry back to your own boiling world -your kitchen so quickly that meal is ready and we dine together in same plate while i watch tv and you still delve more in your ever present silence. i dont expect you to speak anyways as you have not sought the day's happiness which i presume you woud have shared with me. i have forgotten whether you could make me laugh i don't remember what you look when you smile i don't remeber when you last felt like touching me not out of duty but as result of an emotion arising out of no reason- did you ever press my palms during any of those many silent hours and said 'i love you'? did you ever understand what i meant- when i told you in million different ways that 'i need your love'? i can forgive you for not loving me but i can't forget that you made my world look a very loved one and now no one understands what i crave for no one believes that i too need someone. sometimes ... though... rarely... i find the person whom i seek in you.... but then.... the strain you go though to be that is equally apparent on your face and so i allow you to slip back in your non existing self as that's what you do most effortlessly. time passes..... days, months, years, more than a decade has passed..... i no more find the need to make myself understood you too ask questions very rarely we seem to have accepted our existence respecting each others presence tendering each others need trying to nurture that invisble bond which will holds us together feeling for each other in a strange way what which i can never call- LOVE :-(